The first number is the crime rate in toledo (Per 100,000 people). The second number is the national average. Wish me luck :/

Overall Toledo Crime Index 8676.2, 4479.3

Toledo Violent Crimes 1147.4, 553.5
Toledo Murders 11.6, 7
Toledo Rapes 56, 33.1
Toledo Robberies 413.7, 205.8
Toledo Aggravated Assaults 666, 336.5

Toledo Property Crimes 7528.9, 3906.1
Toledo Burglaries 2292.4, 813.2
Toledo Larceny/Thefts 4388.8, 2601.7
Toledo Motor Vehicle Thefts 847.7, 501.5

"i'm sorry"...





just isn't fucking good enough

Day 2 back from Bonnaroo

overwhelmed with ache and exhaustion
a few shades darker
moving about a constant mental haze
too in love to function

it feels very strange to spend the afternoon alone

11 hours of driving

8 hours of David Sedaris talking at me from my stereo

18 hours in West Virginia

1 king size bed

1 in-room jaccuzi

1 hotel room resident (when asked if I had the card the room was booked on, I got to say, "no, my company paid for the room")

1 graduation

1 boring speech from Michael Phelps' mom... boring because she didn't talk about the achievement of hers that made her famous

2 hours of wrist shattering camera-holding / recent grad herding

...

One sleepy/accomplished me

First road trip alone, first hotel room alone, first West Virginia in general

It feels momentus, at least worth recording

I really enjoyed Crystal's visit, even though I got a little too uppity about showing her every possible thing. We had some good talks. Old friends bring great comfort.

In other news..

Must resist urge to be needy.
Must resist urge to be needy.

My body pillow will be cuddles enough tonight.

must become less neurotic

must become less neurotic

must become less neurotic

also...

really enjoying company of old friends in montreal

will turn 23 tomorrow

happy birthday, Tristan

"photo a day" starts back up today, probably only on facebook

nearly avoided encountering Jason and the new girl

will fly back to the nati tomorrow

with lots to think about

No more grandfathers left

Hey anonymous comment poster (julia?)...

sign your comments with your name (please).

thanks!

-me

Update-

rabidly unpacked

no mice

only creaky dance dance revolution mat

Woke at 8 am to run around making cupcakes... that few at dinner cared to eat.

Left for Columbus, for an introduction to a second job that I don't need, but could certainly use.

Slammed on my brakes in the left lane of the highway as traffic stopped for an accident. The car following too close behind me had to swerve into the shoulder to avoid hitting me. It made me nervous.

My boxes arrived from Toronto today. They make me nervous too. They wreak of Jason, our expired love. I think of him packing it all up, watching someone else take it away, and it makes me ill with regret that I handled things so poorly, so cowardly.

My belongings creak like the mice that creeped around our summer home and now I'm too afraid to unpack them alone in the middle of the night. I have to wait for another almost two hours for Brian to get home from his gig.

I hate living so terrified.